""Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you, you're cool, fuck you, fuck you, I'm out."

(Above: Having fun with mom's dildo's)

Sorry anyone was ever offended by anything I said. Maybe you're just offended because you know I'm right. I get jealous when people cry over some cancer kid who sang a couple crappy songs and donated the money to charity, while mother Theresa dies and nobody cares or cries. Mother Theresa, Princess Diana and other people have done so much for the world. Did you make a big elaborate show? Hell no. These are the people that inspired me cause they actually devoted their whole fucking lives to the well being of others. What gives you the right to just shrug off their death and act like this stupid kid  who had cancer was like some kind of demi-god? Yes cancer sucks. Yes I believe in finding a cure, yes I feel sorry for his family, yes it is too bad any human being should have to die from cancer. When people disregard those who actually are human and make others lives better I get a little pissed off. That kid made money off of his TV show and other CD's he made. I bet he only started to donate money to cancer research  once he found out that he had it. He profited off of others and then donated to charity. Mother Theresa didn't accept one fucking penny. She helped people because she knew it was what she was supposed to do. Michael whatever his last name was did what he did only after he hade made his buck. Weep for a greater cause, don't insult god and praise greed and regret. Anyone that gets offended by this is stupid and simple minded. If you were somewhat intelligent you'd put yourself above what I'm saying because you know that it's just my opinion. I hope you grow up someday you pathetic attention starved little girls.

Yours Truly, 

Ass face mother fucker bastard head piss cock gobbler whore boy.

The truth hurts and that's why they hate me, I mean holy shit. Talk about attention starved.

Went from A's to C-'s in one term. Lol

 bleh

Fuck you Kristina Z! You bitch. I make you like 4 CD's for your birthday when nobody else got you stuff and then you go and ditch me to go off with Rachel and Marco. You Bitch!

And about Michael Ciconoioncio or whatever the fuck his name is, his music still sucks and yeah he was a nice guy. That's no reason to treat him like some kind of god and cry over his death. You want someone to cry for? Mother Theresa is dead. She did a shitload more for humanity. Fucking teeny bopper losers. 

I'm so mad right now. Somebody get me outta here, I'm tearing up myself. I made a chicken wire penis today. I'll put up some pictures.

Giger Wallpaper (223kB) - If you like gothic stiff and the "ALIEN" movies you'll like this... it's a collage of some of his art.

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Giger Wallpaper (223kB) - If you like gothic stiff and the "ALIEN" movies you'll like this... it's a collage of some of his art.

CAUSE I'M A LIAR! YEAH I'M A LIAR! I'LL TEAR YOUR MIND OUT! I'LL BURN YOUR SOUL! I'LL TURN YOU INTO ME!

I'll hide behind a smile, and understanding eyes, and I'll tell you things you already know, so you can say, "I really identify with you so much", and all the time that you're needing me, is just the time I'm bleeding you, don't you get it yet? I'll come to you like an affliction, and I'll leave you like an addiction, you'll never forget me...

YOU WANNA KNOW WHY? CAUSE I'M A LIAR! 

But if you give me just one more chance, I swear I will never lie to you again, because now I see the destructive power of a lie is stronger than truth. I can't believe I ever hurt you, I swear I will never lie to you again, please, just give me one more chance, I will never lie to you again, no, I swear, I will never tell a lie, no, no. 

HA HA HA HA HA! HO HO HO HO HO! SUCKER! SUCKER! I AM A LIAR! I LIKE IT! I FEEL GOOD! I AM A LIAR!

-Liar by the Henry Rollin's Band

On another note, I quit boxing because it's just not me, I've never been on a team or in a sport before. It's too late to start and I'm a lazy, procrastinating, unorganized asshole. You'd all understand... if... if you were me I guess.

Moods are fickle, so are my appetites. Grandma is dying, on the phone I hear her crying. Why is she so afraid of winning the game? It's those cigarette companies to blame. Maybe she didn't win. Maybe people who lose the game are afraid of dying. Maybe everyone is afraid of dying. Every year someone goes. Last year grandpa, the year before that aunty Maud, before that Ron. God damn death. God damn those who waste their life with procrastination. Shit. I should get back to homework.

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There are some new pictures but I'm afraid you guys will have to see the new disclaimer because some people still like to fuck a buck out of other people the easy way, by using lawyers. 

Teenage Love?

           Love is such a powerful word that is thrown around by many individuals. Relationships, sex, and breaking up are the components of life that we use to build character. This plays a large part in the life of the average teenager. The causes and effects of relationships are extremely complex because each one is different. This is not an essay on my own experiences; it is simply just an analysis of love from a teenager’s point of view.

          Relationships are at the center of love. You can’t have love without a relationship. Reasons teenagers get involved in relationships because of peer pressure from friends, hormonal changes, curiosity, self-esteem, and the defiance of their parent’s beliefs or morals. The last reason is more popularly associated with females than males just because females are more sheltered and protected by their parents. There is a lot more detail to these reasons. If a teenager is somewhat socially popular it is expected by that person’s friends that the individual is to date or start a relationship with another socially popular person. Hormonal changes drive young males to run around like dogs in heat. They look for the most physically appealing female and then pursues her. There are exceptions because some males are very shy and self-conscious. The younger teenagers date mainly because it is something new and exciting. Some teenagers go out with people to increase their self-esteem. When a person with little esteem starts dating, the whole world around them seems a lot brighter. Rejection of these individuals by the opposite sex or same sex can be emotionally devastating. This is usually the case when someone with little confidence or low self-esteem tries to start a relationship with another person. No one likes to date someone that is sad or sulking.

          The costs of developing a relationship of any kind have their toll both financially and emotionally. Financially, a date to the movies now a days costs twenty to thirty dollars. This price does not include the popcorn or drinks and it is usually the male in the couple that has to pay up. What some couples do as an alternative now is just pay for themselves when go out to a movie or dinner. Emotionally, dates can be very devastating. There are some cases where teenagers will go on a date with complete strangers. This can be awkward, especially if the two have not conversed before or if they don’t have a common interest. If this is the situation the individuals will go home unsatisfied and disappointed. The real emotional damage comes when the individuals are asked about the date at school. If either of the two people says derogatory things about the other person, the other person's self-esteem can be crushed instantly. If this happens to a person with already low self-esteem extremes may occur in the person’s behavior, such as thoughts of suicide, aggressiveness, and poor work ethic.

          Sexual intercourse can also be another part of teenage relationships. Reasons that teenagers start having sexual intercourse are almost the same as the reasons that they would get into a relationship, for example, if a teenager is somewhat socially popular and is involved with socially popular person they get pressured into having sex with that person. Socially popular individuals are the most self-conscious teenagers of all. They will do almost anything to get attention and the admiration of others. Men have sex so that they are seen as being superior to other males. Sex in some cultures is seen as a young boy’s first step into manhood. Young teenage women think about sex just as much young teenage men but not in the same context. Sex for women is seen more as another step towards commitment with the “perfect man”. They are also less vocal about it in public or when they are in the company of males. Some teenagers have sex with people to help them be more comfortable with their physical self. Young teenage women and young teenage men feel uncomfortable with their developing bodies. Sometimes a reason both sexes will have sex is just to feel that they are superiorly attractive. More young teenage women than men have sex to raise their self esteem. This also coincides with more young teenage women smoking earlier than young teenage men. Young teenage women seem to be more emotionally and physically insecure than young teenage men and therefore sometimes use sex and smoking as something to make them feel better about themselves. When a person with little or damaged esteem has sex with someone, not necessarily someone special, they feel less self conscious because they know someone likes their body. This senseless and promiscuous teenage sex really has nothing to do with a person’s personality but more to do with the person’s body. The younger teenagers in today’s society have sex mainly because it is becoming more and more acceptable by the media.

Sex is now in music more than ever and continues to plague popular late night television programming. Sex is also the best way to make someone feel really low. An example of this would be something along the lines of a girl using a boy to gain social status and then telling the whole school that the boy could not compensate her needs sexually.

Sexual intercourse has it’s toll both financially and emotionally. Financially, sex can be quite expensive. There are things to consider when sex shopping such as lubricant, condoms, and exotic fruit. This can cost about ten to twenty-five dollars. This price does not include birth control, the morning after pill, abortions, or child support. Emotionally sex can ruin a person for life. Some teenagers will have sex with someone before getting to know them and their sexual history. This is extremely dangerous and irresponsible. If the couple has not talked about birth control or sexually transmitted diseases then each individual is at a great health risk. It would be just like drinking a bottle of something that looks like apple juice that was left on the bleachers after a high school soccer game except ten times as dangerous. Emotional damage comes when one of the individuals talks about the sex at school. If one of the two people says deprecating things about the other person, the other person's ego, self-esteem, and libido can be suddenly smashed. If this happens to a person with already low self-worth the person’s actions might change dramatically.

 Finally comes the most vital and complex part of the teenage love cycle, the breakup. There are quite a few different variations of the teenage breakup. Some of the final words are well written before hand and are elaborately intricate and flowery. Some are just really simple and take only about five words to express. The most effective method is to get to the point. Don’t make a big flowery elaborate speech. If you’re straight forward, honest, and direct, the individual will respect the other person unless he or she is really aggressive or overly emotional.

The most damaging thing a young woman can say to a young man is “Lets still be friends.” Most women should avoid using this line unless they are intent on never speaking to the young gentleman again. This is simply because no matter how you breakup with a person there’s always that feeling of rejection when someone says they don’t enjoy your company as much as they used to. If the two are going to remain friends it will work itself out.

The most damaging thing a guy can tell a girl when breaking up with her is the truth. Women need to be lied to; they can’t deal with the fact that a person finds them annoying, boring, or no longer emotionally adequate. The results of a break up vary. The effects range from suicide to relief from both of the individuals.

Teenage love is a very complex and strange subject to write about. If someone were to cover all aspects of it they would probably need to write a book. A recent article in the Vancouver Sun said that teenage deaths in British Columbia are now caused more by suicide than by car crashes. Another article in the Province claimed that young teenage women in relationships are more depressed than young teenage women that are single. Teenage love is a serious matter and a mature matter that needs more attention and study.

Relationships are like a small town restaurant's dinner menu. There are three meals all costing $7.50 a plate. They all look really good but all have something a little different to offer. A side of Fries costs extra and so does the a pop. When all you have is $10 you have to just pick one. When you're as starved as I was this weekend you really wanna make that $10 go towards something that tastes good and that'll keep you content for a while. This probably sounds really bad if you're a girl reading this but the truth is that most girls I know shop the same way when on a strict budget.

Why don't more people hate me. I really wish they would. Supposedly I'm popular "at school". But the truth is that I spend most of my weekends in bed, in bed alone, with no one calling on the phone. 

I find myself kicking myself in the ass. I missed something really special just so I could jack around with my friends. This makes regret #2 on Daryl's all time top ten. But you know I guess I should just give up on regret because you really can't compete with history. At least she knows... I gave her flowers to show that I cared. They were daisies. BETTER THAN ROSES. (also cheaper and better smelling).

I'll probably figure out more stuff to post in the next little while. Until then I'll be drooling over the dinner menu.

WHY THE FUCK CAN'T THEY JUST SERVE CHEAP APPETIZERS?

You little slut. That was for those of you with slutty lil' ears and slutty lil' noodles. This is an inside joke so don't get all feminist and offended and shit.

There's nothing more satisfying than face washing a stuck up Russian model. Except maybe when she gets in shit for doing the same thing back to you. 

If she's wondering why I don't call its probably because a) I'm too busy, b) I wanna see if she'll call me for once dammit, and finally c) I'm a lazy bastard. She's cool. Very cool.

This week I reminisce of the ghosts from my past, especially the ones from grade 8 *shudder*. I think about all the assholes and then I get back to thinking about her so I send her a msg. Reply? Oh my. Now I guess we'll go see Hannibal... hopefully. Ha.

And what I choose is my choice. What's a boy supposed to do? Send this smile over to you? I used to be a little boy.

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I dunno - some funny cartoon thing

Don't touch me - A funny lil' song bout squirrels eating my brains.