12/12/00

"I can't find my porn."

Enough of that now. 

"In case of return keep original packaging" I'm glad our mothers don't keep the placentas that we're delivered in, hell, my mom probably would've returned me.

I'm not going to boxing tonight, I'm very sick. I was so out of it at school and I am now as well... I find myself listening to Moby and laughing because I just figured out that this morning I drank 3 Extra Strength NeoCitrans by accident... hahahaha.

Everything is so beautiful. 

I can't deal with this, I can't deal with her and her boyfriend. I'm an idiot but you were right. I just needed to get over the fact that she is with him because she wants to be. She doesn't want me that way. Rejection? No, just bad timing or maybe a little bit of both.

I had the best day in a long time yesterday. I received 6 A's and 2 B's on my report card. yay for me day. I got to go out to dinner. I got to know a special someone just a little bit better as well. 

To all the women who don't know what they want to get into: I need some time alone. BY MYSELF. Maybe it'd be better if I were alone forever. I wouldn't have to figure out who's my friend, who's my crush, who's my girlfriend, who's my life, who's my want, who's my need, who's my inspiration, who's my breath, who's my heart, who's my ______, and finally who's my blood.

The succession of events this month has lead me to this conclusion: I will keep my page up because I still need it. Because maybe even you need it. This was where the NeoCitran took over.

Blurp, Blurp, Blurp.

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Fight - A man fist fighting a bear

"I can't find my porn."

Enough of that now. 

"In case of return keep original packaging" I'm glad our mothers don't keep the placentas that we're delivered in, hell, my mom probably would've returned me.

I'm not going to boxing tonight, I'm very sick. I was so out of it at school and I am now as well... I find myself listening to Moby and laughing because I just figured out that this morning I drank 3 Extra Strength NeoCitrans by accident... hahahaha.

Everything is so beautiful. 

I can't deal with this, I can't deal with her and her boyfriend. I'm an idiot but you were right. I just needed to get over the fact that she is with him because she wants to be. She doesn't want me that way. Rejection? No, just bad timing or maybe a little bit of both.

I had the best day in a long time yesterday. I received 6 A's and 2 B's on my report card. yay for me day. I got to go out to dinner. I got to know a special someone just a little bit better as well. 

To all the women who don't know what they want to get into: I need some time alone. BY MYSELF. Maybe it'd be better if I were alone forever. I wouldn't have to figure out who's my friend, who's my crush, who's my girlfriend, who's my life, who's my want, who's my need, who's my inspiration, who's my breath, who's my heart, who's my ______, and finally who's my blood.

The succession of events this month has lead me to this conclusion: I will keep my page up because I still need it. Because maybe even you need it. This was where the NeoCitran took over.

Blurp, Blurp, Blurp.

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Fight - A man fist fighting a bear

12/10/00

"If you don't already know, I can't explain why"

I'm so fucking sorry. I know you all hate it when we say sorry. It's okay because you always say sorry too.

Now there's no where left to hide. I can't post anything here anymore. You raise hell and bitch and moan. FUCK YOU! I made this stomping ground for me! Didn't I?

Maybe this is all for you. All of you, to relate to me, to see the real you. I'm going to end this. It's gone too far...

No, I can't. It'd be like killing my child. I created this. 

"The simple things in life are yours to own, just remember that they may end up owning you"

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Fuck Off - How I really feel

12/09/00

"Tonight, I throw myself in two"

I can't date. I just can't. I'm not capable or something. I don't know why. What the hell is wrong with me? Am I the only person that asks this fucking question? Is it her? Is she the reason we didn't click. Yes! That's all I could think about anyway! It is her... fuck. I need to get over this. 

I'm sorry to all of those people out there I've hurt. I'm an idiot. I don't know what I'm doing. I feel like I just ate a jar full of rancid playdoh. They don't want me because I persue. If I could make her want me then I'd be fine. I can't though. There's better options than me right now and it kills me. AGGHAHHGHAHGAAAAAA!!!!! I used to be so good at giving advice, now it seems that I could use some, or someone.

I'm having a very frustrating month. People say Christmas can be the lonliest time of year...

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The Sex Project - Something beautiful is something free

Survivorer - Nothing more than a cheesy net takeoff of the popular contest

I don't really have any valueable information to give you

12/05/00

"I don't wanna be your downtime, I don't wanna be your stupid game."

Watching the world die. Yay. So anyway, me and a friend have figured out that I'm a slut. She was saying, "I'm a slut" so I said, "Wait a minute, you're not the slut I am!"

Men are sluts, hahhahahaha. Oh well. 

Is it over now? Do you know how to pick up the pieces and go home? Riiiiiiiiiight. I surrender I guess, no, wait, fuck! I don't know. Thinking right now is pretty hard for me. And then you see each other and try to pretend that things are strange or something. You hold back when all you really want to do is embrace her and.... well I've gone to far already I guess.

Anyways, there's this girl I've been talking to, Angela,  and she seems pretty cool so I'm going on away on a train with her on Friday.

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Compu Kill - My hero...

You have male - Funny cartoon

I don't know what this is... its my eye and a bunch of jibberish.

12/04/00

"Here's a little legend for the never believer"

'm pretty pissed off with Soldier of Fortune, it's been giving me trouble. I think I'll make the mod for Half-Life instead. Woa, work.

Fuck, I'm getting good grades. Five A's, three B's. I used to despise people with grades like this, the perfectionists...

I feel like I've been awarded something, most of the credit I'll have to give to my recent girlfriends. Without them I have no motivation, no happiness, no work ethic. 

Girls, shit, they're so quick to tell you that they've broken up with their boyfriends, then, when you finally work up some balls or whatever to ask them out or something you find out from a friend that her and her boyfriend have gotten back together. Here are a bunch of random obcenities: Fuck shit motherfucker piss cock pussymuncher fuckface goatfucker pigfucker sheepfucker buckfutter fuckbutter fuck fuck fuck!!!!!

AAAAAAAAAGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHH!!!!

I'm gonna blow, I swear to god. Erin, nice bags babe, nice bags. 

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Laugh at Me - A stupid poem

Soldier Standoff v1.0! - An awesome 2player game for win9X

Soldier Standoff NET v0.1 BETA! - An awesome (Temporarily Singleplayer) mutiplayer game for win9X

Opera - The fastest fucking browser with resume support.